And here we go!

Ok, so this is kind of embarrassing for me to say... but I am fat... There is not sugar coating it anymore. I'm not fluffy, big boned, and I sure as heck don't have any baby weight... I'm just plain ol' fat. Ok, so on to my point... I have been following my cousins progress while she does Insanity and I can't help but be completely envious of her. So I got to looking at Insanity and definitely got discouraged and instantly started doing my typical negative self talk of "oh that's way to hard for me","I probably couldn't even make it through the first day".... But I stopped myself and began to think, why can't I do it? What is stopping me from even trying? Even if I can only do half of the work out that is more than nothing!
... And can I say that this picture is probably the most embarrassing thing ever! But I feel that is I am open and honest with myself and others about my body, there will be a better chance of me succeeding! (I was going to even try and hide my fat under a t-shirt for the pictures, but I really want the truth to stare me in face)

So family, friends, and blog readers... I am going to give it a go! What do I have to lose? (except weight) I am ready to start being a better me and I am fed up with crappy diets. That is my other point. I like food! I like to eat crappy, fatty foods! Yes, I love to eat healthy stuff as well, but if you but a brownie in front of my face I am going to eat it and then go back for seconds; and I'm not ashamed of that. I have no will power towards food, and that is what has gotten me this fat... I sit there and try to deny myself of the foods I love and then I cave in and eat 10 of each thing that I've been craving... I really am sick of fighting my body's food cravings so I'm not going to fight it anymore... That is why I HAVE to start exercising or I'm just going to get even bigger. I'm not asking for diet tips, I'm not asking for exercise tips, all I am asking for is your support... I'm starting Insanity on Saturday so here's to a better body and better health!